verbal dyslexia

Monday, August 30, 2004

Monday...Is it time to go home yet?

Mondays suck.

Mondays make it hard for one to truly enjoy a weekend away from work, because all you can think about on Sunday is "fuck. I have to go to work tomorrow."

It isn't that bad a thing if you are employed somewhere that you actually like. But if you work somewhere that has a strained, tense atmosphere, it is all bad. Which brings me to this statement. I HATE THIS FUCKING JOB. What? Why don't I quit you ask? Well there are these little things called bills that are keeping me here. I could collect unemployment, but that isn't enough for me to survive on. I have been job hunting my ass off so, it is just a matter of time before I find something else I am sure. I have to keep a positive outlook, or I am going to be miserable. But it is interesting to me how my whole demeanor changes once I step into the lobby of this building. It is like a dark cloud looming over me until I leave here, and then the sun comes out again...

My boss is a BITCH. She seems like she is the type of person that has to tear others down to make herself look better. She always has a catty remark to say to me, and I don't know where it stems from. I make it a point not to have any coversation with her unless it is work related, but she always has something really shitty to say. I don't think that I have ever held my tongue this much in my life. I can't wait until I quit working here; I am going to give that broad such a piece of my mind. That is the only thing that really keeps me motivated. Whoowie, that is going to be great!

I got pizza for lunch today...Papa Murphy's...they prepare it for you and then you take it home and bake it. Good shit... I wish lunch time would hurry and get here...

This weekend was pretty interesting. Hung out Friday night, and craziness ensued. I was just an innocent bystander, but that was deep, man...Saturday I went to a wedding. It was beautful, but it made me realize that I don't want to get married. Maybe I am jaded, but I don't want to have a ceremony as lovely as that one was just for it to go south later down the road. The whole marriage concept is not taken seriously anymore. That piece of paper does not make it harder for a person to cheat. In some instances it is the reason the person does stray. People just don't stay together like they used to. Honestly, I don't want to have any kids, so I don't need to get married. If you are going to be with someone, you are just going to do it. No ceremony, no hoopla, no big deal. Granted, it would be nice to put on a beautiful gown and stand in front of the man you love and tell him that you give yourself to him until the day you die, but how realistic is that?

I am not saying that there is anything worng with marriage. If that is your prerogative, go ahead and do the damn thing. I wish you the best, really. If there are people out there that can make it work, than I commend them. But in this day and age those relationships are few and far between from where I stand...

*sigh* I digress...back to this weekend.

It was pretty cool until late Sunday afternoon. One of my good friends had to be taken to the hospital. We called an ambulance, and we all went over to the hospital. We all stayed for about 3 hours, then they released her and we all went home. That was scary, but she is fine now.

The weather was beautiful. I didn't get to do some of the things I wanted to do, but overall the weekend was nice. I wish I could have gotten in a few more hours of sleep, but if I was sitting in the house all weekend with nothing to do I would have been annoyed, so it is wavy gravy :-)

This weekend should be nice too. 3 days because of labor day weekend...Woo hoo!

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